Again With The Neglet.

 Awh poor blog. It's not that I Don't care or that I'm lazy (Okay, I'll Admit It. That Is The Reason Sometimes.) But just that I haven't had any time or patience. Last time I updated you day by day. Well this time laziness and lack of patience will be allowed to prevent me from doing the same. Just remember you haven't missed much.
  Stress Is What I Want To Talk About. Apparently stress and depression are interchangeable. Yes I am stressed. I have many reasons to be. Lately my life has been flip-flopped around. One third of my family is been taking away, not to mention he was my best friend. Until now, I never really had experienced grief, so their was no possible way I could understand it. My friend group has done a 165. [Not a 180. V and Squee are still here. (V being Veronica. Tiffany being Squee.)] And some other changes happened this summer.
 I don't think I am depressed, though I am entirely convinced one day I will be bipolar (Runs in the family.)
 Along with said stress I have been getting headaches. Now I have always been sensitive to sound but now this is just crazy. Too some people headaches are something they rarely experience or something they might get once a week maybe twice. I'm Very lucky if I only get three a day. In a normal day I have very few times a day when I don't have one. And when I don't feel good I express it. I get quiet. Your lucky to get a conversation out of me when I don't feel good. My friends that haven't know me long think I am on some sugar high when I feel alright. I am really a talkative person, and I have a very loud voice. Now I rarely ever use it; I am always talking real quiet. Because Sound and Smell really bother me. I find myself getting a headache walking down the candle isle at Walmart.
 Sometimes with my headaches I get light-headed and sleepy. Other times I may get sick to my stomach. I probably should talk to a doctor. I'll get around to it one day. Maybe.
   Sigh.

My Poor Negleted Blog!

  Well I did it again. I completely neglected my blog for 11 days. Well Ain't I Smart! Uck! I am kicking myself because of it. I Have Some Catching Up To Do Alright! So This Will More Than Likely Be A Long Blog Post!
   Sept. 23- HOCKEY NIGHT! Veronica, Cale, Brady and I went to a hockey game that Thursday night. It was fun even though we lost. 3-1. Oh Well It's Preseason. Doesn't Really Matter Anyway. Brady was in a horrible mood that night. It got annoying. We snuck on a handicapped elevator. And ate Taco's. Pretty Awesome Night!
   Sept.24- The Bus! Urg! I had an alright day. It had It's ups and downs, that's for sure. Then I got on the bus. Urg! It was awful! An 18 year old screaming things about Flying  Squirrels & a six year old cussing out pretty much everyone on the bus gets very annoying. Luckly Enough Mother picked me up about halfway through the bus route. Though I still had to deal with her It was better Than that bus.
   Sept. 27th- Hockey Night! Again! This time we took Tiffany :) And Brady was In a much better mood. Oh and I got to see Ryan shortly.And They played really good music at the arena. We still had tacos. And we won! It was another amazing night!
    Sept. 28- The End Of Summer. Maybe not the official date, but remember I'm a rebel. :) After School Ryan was going to stay the night with us. One we had no school the next day, Two The next day Brady had to go to the Dr about hearing aids. I'll tell you all about that for the next day. Anyway the short time Brady was over here we went to the neighbors And they had a bonfire and it was really fun. The kids loved it :)
    Sept. 29th- Lord! Brady had to go get fitted for hearing aids. Which brings me to my next point. I don't get told crap. The whole family had knew about him having to get hearing aids before me. If they knew half of the extent that I love that boy Then I promise you that they wouldn't let everyone and their grandmother's know something about him before I did. They don't want me to worry But not telling me something until after It slips out of someone's mouth Does nothing but pisses me off at them. Anyway Momma, Ryan and I had a big day out and about. I received many headaches Like every other day.
    And It's been relatively boring since then. I think somewhere in there Tiffany came over with Bryson. Yes and that was when Barry White brought his youngest over. :) That was great. :)

"You are you, If anything, Its the world that needs changin' " -Mac Hall :)

  Did I ever post about how much I like to talk to Mac. :) Well his dad owns the motorcycle shop downtown, and they had a show this weekend. So naturally they must have been crazy busy. He hasn't had a little bit of time to talk to me at all. And I miss him like crazy.
   Did I also ever tell you guys how much I hate people talking like I don't exist or I can't hear them. Right now I am listening to Dad and Momma talk about me and they boys like I am not here. I'm in the next room and no doors are closed. Crazy People!
   Also something I can't stand is people who continuously getting hurt by the same people for no reason. A person hurts someone then the person they hurt just runs back to the person. Call it kin folk or best friends or whatever but I guess I learn from my mistakes better than some people do. Get hurt once shame on them. Get hurt twice shame on you. Get hurt 875859565478687 times LEARN YOUR LESSON!!!!

HOCKEY!!!

 Weither you know this ar not I am an avid hockey fan. The team I'm in lovewith is the Nashville Predators! We go to a bunch of their games. This Thursday Night Me, Cale, Brady and hopefully Veronica wll sadle up the ol' altima and head to Smashville. With A Taco Bell run somewhere in there. :) I could not be more excited.
  On top of the fact I just love my team, My favorite player was recently named Captain! Shea Weber. :) Super freaking cute on top of his amazing hockey skills MmmmHmmm! :) Cale recently told me that our rookie team was voted best in the NHL! :)

Wow...

  I recently made one of my best friends Tiffany a blog. I was hoping she would take up with it. Let me tell you She Has! She wrote two blogs and I absolutely love them! Reading what she has to say just floors me. She has been through so much and to see her talking about it is very very heartwarming to me. You can feel the emotions as you read. I strongly suggest you read it! Click Here!!!
  Today Mom picked me up from school early. I was glad she did. I looked at Jacob and for some odd reason I started to feel guilty. I guess it was where I found so much joy talking to Mac last night that made me feel like this. But I saw him and regreted it. I told Mac that I must be very screwed up. I see Jacob and its like everything is wrong. While we were together If i saw him I felt amazing and couldn't wait to see him again. The day I read The note I didn't want to leave him. I knew if I did I would cry my eyes out, But I couldn't look at him. It felt like a train crashing into my chest. After a very tearful night The next day when I saw him in the hallway I almost had a panic attack. It was awful.
   I need to stop talking about Jacob. We are over. We will never be together again. I won't lose him as a friend. I need to be with someone that is right for me. I have yet to find my soul mate. It might take a while. As Mac said last night "You are you, If anything, Its the world that needs changin'"

Some Quotes No One Should Ever Forget

  Okay, those of you that know me probably know I absolutely love quotes and sayings. Somethings just sound so right when someone else says it. Here are some of my favorites. I try to keep the source but sometimes it just gets lost.
   

Seriousness is really boring, Look I'm Already Snoring.

I look at my hands, and feel sad, because the spaces between my fingers are where yours fit perfectly.

Do not live your life with shame, guilt, or regret. Learn, grow, and move on.

Scars heal, glory fades, and all we're left with are the memories made! Pain hurts, but only for a minute, life is short so go on and LIVE IT!

‎"THERE IS WATER BETWEEN MY BUTT CHEEKS AND YOU THINK YOU WIN!?!" -Veronica Mejia

You always heading on a safe bet; walking a tight rope with a saftey net. Face it, it doesn't sh*t unless you take a risk. -3OH!3

Life like a dance you learn as you go, sometimes you lead sometimes you follow, don't worry bout what you don't know, life's a dance you learn as you go 

Just watch my widest dreams come true, not one of them involving you! -Paramore

the nicest thing for me is sleep, then at least i can dream- Marilyn Monroe

It's not a human walk, it's the human race If we were living on the edge, taking too much space So I'll doubt I'll figure out just what to do But to kicking around, hanging out this afternoon. -Nickelback

Doo Something Crazy And Dumb While You're Still Young

"life is too serious to be taken seriously"

Blahh...

  To say I'm not in a good mood would be an understatement. The worst part is I HAVE NO IDEA WHY!!! I don't feel sick. Nothing hurts but the back of my upper legs for some odd reason, but that only hurts when I hit against something. This morning I was really annoyed with the girls I hang out with. Momma had drove me to school so I didn't have to deal with that awful bus. In Ag. shop we moved corn hole boards once then just sat around. I talked to Tyler Carter about his senior stuff. Then in English my first class with Jacob & Veronica, I just felt awful. Not sick just kinda depressed. Jacob noticed. In math he kept asking what was wrong. I didn't honestly know so I told him nothing. I didn't eat lunch. Which I normally don't eat school lunch anymore. Yet, It still seemed to bother Jacob that I wasn't eating. I just read. Anyway I was mainly like this till I got off the bus this afternoon. The neighbors Weren't home and Jonny was somewhere else so I stayed about 45 minutes with the girls till Stephanie Got home. They cheered me up a little. I was very overjoyed that Jaycee Paige (2) has stopped being shy around me and even attempts to say my name. :) I was also texting Mac so I was happy till he had to stop and eat and my book ended. Now I am hear writing this mess I wouldn't even call a blog.