Wow...

  I recently made one of my best friends Tiffany a blog. I was hoping she would take up with it. Let me tell you She Has! She wrote two blogs and I absolutely love them! Reading what she has to say just floors me. She has been through so much and to see her talking about it is very very heartwarming to me. You can feel the emotions as you read. I strongly suggest you read it! Click Here!!!
  Today Mom picked me up from school early. I was glad she did. I looked at Jacob and for some odd reason I started to feel guilty. I guess it was where I found so much joy talking to Mac last night that made me feel like this. But I saw him and regreted it. I told Mac that I must be very screwed up. I see Jacob and its like everything is wrong. While we were together If i saw him I felt amazing and couldn't wait to see him again. The day I read The note I didn't want to leave him. I knew if I did I would cry my eyes out, But I couldn't look at him. It felt like a train crashing into my chest. After a very tearful night The next day when I saw him in the hallway I almost had a panic attack. It was awful.
   I need to stop talking about Jacob. We are over. We will never be together again. I won't lose him as a friend. I need to be with someone that is right for me. I have yet to find my soul mate. It might take a while. As Mac said last night "You are you, If anything, Its the world that needs changin'"