"You are you, If anything, Its the world that needs changin' " -Mac Hall :)

  Did I ever post about how much I like to talk to Mac. :) Well his dad owns the motorcycle shop downtown, and they had a show this weekend. So naturally they must have been crazy busy. He hasn't had a little bit of time to talk to me at all. And I miss him like crazy.
   Did I also ever tell you guys how much I hate people talking like I don't exist or I can't hear them. Right now I am listening to Dad and Momma talk about me and they boys like I am not here. I'm in the next room and no doors are closed. Crazy People!
   Also something I can't stand is people who continuously getting hurt by the same people for no reason. A person hurts someone then the person they hurt just runs back to the person. Call it kin folk or best friends or whatever but I guess I learn from my mistakes better than some people do. Get hurt once shame on them. Get hurt twice shame on you. Get hurt 875859565478687 times LEARN YOUR LESSON!!!!

HOCKEY!!!

 Weither you know this ar not I am an avid hockey fan. The team I'm in lovewith is the Nashville Predators! We go to a bunch of their games. This Thursday Night Me, Cale, Brady and hopefully Veronica wll sadle up the ol' altima and head to Smashville. With A Taco Bell run somewhere in there. :) I could not be more excited.
  On top of the fact I just love my team, My favorite player was recently named Captain! Shea Weber. :) Super freaking cute on top of his amazing hockey skills MmmmHmmm! :) Cale recently told me that our rookie team was voted best in the NHL! :)

Wow...

  I recently made one of my best friends Tiffany a blog. I was hoping she would take up with it. Let me tell you She Has! She wrote two blogs and I absolutely love them! Reading what she has to say just floors me. She has been through so much and to see her talking about it is very very heartwarming to me. You can feel the emotions as you read. I strongly suggest you read it! Click Here!!!
  Today Mom picked me up from school early. I was glad she did. I looked at Jacob and for some odd reason I started to feel guilty. I guess it was where I found so much joy talking to Mac last night that made me feel like this. But I saw him and regreted it. I told Mac that I must be very screwed up. I see Jacob and its like everything is wrong. While we were together If i saw him I felt amazing and couldn't wait to see him again. The day I read The note I didn't want to leave him. I knew if I did I would cry my eyes out, But I couldn't look at him. It felt like a train crashing into my chest. After a very tearful night The next day when I saw him in the hallway I almost had a panic attack. It was awful.
   I need to stop talking about Jacob. We are over. We will never be together again. I won't lose him as a friend. I need to be with someone that is right for me. I have yet to find my soul mate. It might take a while. As Mac said last night "You are you, If anything, Its the world that needs changin'"

Some Quotes No One Should Ever Forget

  Okay, those of you that know me probably know I absolutely love quotes and sayings. Somethings just sound so right when someone else says it. Here are some of my favorites. I try to keep the source but sometimes it just gets lost.
   

Seriousness is really boring, Look I'm Already Snoring.

I look at my hands, and feel sad, because the spaces between my fingers are where yours fit perfectly.

Do not live your life with shame, guilt, or regret. Learn, grow, and move on.

Scars heal, glory fades, and all we're left with are the memories made! Pain hurts, but only for a minute, life is short so go on and LIVE IT!

‎"THERE IS WATER BETWEEN MY BUTT CHEEKS AND YOU THINK YOU WIN!?!" -Veronica Mejia

You always heading on a safe bet; walking a tight rope with a saftey net. Face it, it doesn't sh*t unless you take a risk. -3OH!3

Life like a dance you learn as you go, sometimes you lead sometimes you follow, don't worry bout what you don't know, life's a dance you learn as you go 

Just watch my widest dreams come true, not one of them involving you! -Paramore

the nicest thing for me is sleep, then at least i can dream- Marilyn Monroe

It's not a human walk, it's the human race If we were living on the edge, taking too much space So I'll doubt I'll figure out just what to do But to kicking around, hanging out this afternoon. -Nickelback

Doo Something Crazy And Dumb While You're Still Young

"life is too serious to be taken seriously"

Blahh...

  To say I'm not in a good mood would be an understatement. The worst part is I HAVE NO IDEA WHY!!! I don't feel sick. Nothing hurts but the back of my upper legs for some odd reason, but that only hurts when I hit against something. This morning I was really annoyed with the girls I hang out with. Momma had drove me to school so I didn't have to deal with that awful bus. In Ag. shop we moved corn hole boards once then just sat around. I talked to Tyler Carter about his senior stuff. Then in English my first class with Jacob & Veronica, I just felt awful. Not sick just kinda depressed. Jacob noticed. In math he kept asking what was wrong. I didn't honestly know so I told him nothing. I didn't eat lunch. Which I normally don't eat school lunch anymore. Yet, It still seemed to bother Jacob that I wasn't eating. I just read. Anyway I was mainly like this till I got off the bus this afternoon. The neighbors Weren't home and Jonny was somewhere else so I stayed about 45 minutes with the girls till Stephanie Got home. They cheered me up a little. I was very overjoyed that Jaycee Paige (2) has stopped being shy around me and even attempts to say my name. :) I was also texting Mac so I was happy till he had to stop and eat and my book ended. Now I am hear writing this mess I wouldn't even call a blog.

Reading&Writing.

  All I do is Read and Write Lately. Its My escape from life. Life Lately hasn't been very lovable lately. With my grandpa dieing A little over a month ago, Jacob Breaking our little relationship off and My group of friends Changing majorly, Life is just bothering me. So when I read it takes me out of this life and to whatever is going on in the book. I find myself thinking a response to a question someone asks in the book. With writing I can get all my feelings out and not have to worry about whether I'll be able to without breaking down or getting embarssed. And While writting you can change the story to how ever you want it to be. If Only Life Was Like That.
  In drivers ed today we talked about a minute about our partners. Jacob included me in his group which consists of him, Bryan, and me. I was so afraid that since this whole issue he would drive a huge wedge in between us. And kinda scared I might have to drive with Austin and Jeremy. Its Kinda hard to talk to him. Don't get me wrong, he is my best friend and I would die if I could never talk to him again; I spent so long trying to get him to be mine but now he isn't. I Can't imagine him with anyone else. The thought of anyone else calling him theirs is driving me crazy. I'm super jealous when it comes to him. Which is strange I rarely get that way after a break up.
  Tiffany and Bryson Came over yesterday for a couple hours after my schooling. I took a bunch of pictures And I LOVE them!!!
  Next Thursday the 23rd Is the first preseason game for the Predators that we get to attend. So excited! Hockey is the only sport I can find myself halfway interested in. I Love The Sport! Yet, I am terrified to ice skate. It's the lack of control that bothers me. Yes, You Can Call Me A Control Freak If You Wanna. It bothers me to not be in control. Hydroplaning Is The most Terrifying Thing I Can Think Of When It Comes To Driving.
  Already Disappointed In My Lack Of Regular Blogging Skills. I have a person journal that I try to write in everyday. Currently it has decided to go M.I.A.. So I believe This Will Be Used A Lot. Even though I'm sure no one reads this. But once again it gets my thoughts out in the open.

Good Neice and Nephew Too!

Thursday afternoon Jacob Broke up with me, But we are still friends. So after a Very depressed morning Friday i finally talked to him after lunch. Then I got to feeling better.
  That evening thanks to the rain I didn't get to hang out with Veronica after school. I had to go straight to Cale and Felecia's House. Then we went to the football game.
  I hung out with Masey and Kirsten and Destiny till they annoyed the crap outta me. I found to wonderful boys to hold my attention instead of watching the football game. Mac and Avery! The twins that I used to be friends with in 5th grade till they moved away. With many tears all of which mine I had to realize that they had to go. Then they came back about 5 weeks ago. I hadn't had a real conversation with either one till last night. And I love the two of them. They really know how to make me laugh.

   Then I went home went to sleep and had a boring Saturday.